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'How I wonder how they are'

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I don’t mean to romanticize Richard in a way unintentionally encouraged by such narratives as this one. Human beings are a stereotyping species, so when a film presents us with a brilliant person who has schizophrenia, “brilliant” quickly becomes “what people with schizophrenia are.” In The Soloist Nathaniel Anthony Ayers is a classical musician so talented that in his youth he was accepted to Juilliard. The Richard Ruston of Unlisted wrote the draft of a novel so amazing I wish I could call him up to say, Please can I help you edit your book for publication? Each of these men just happened to come down with paranoid schizophrenia while attending one of America’s premier schools instead of while making widgets. Most people suffering from this disease are ordinary individuals.

However, they’re all someone’s son or daughter. Richard Ruston’s untreated illness separated him from his mother, his wife, a second wife, two daughters, a devoted sister, a loving nephew, a son-in-law, and two grandchildren — the family members we encounter in the film. If during all the years after Richard was diagnosed he had lived in special housing with on-site mental health services — social workers, psychiatrists, support groups — instead of here and there (and on the streets in between), his family might have been able to stay connected with him in a durable network of supportive relationships. He might have finished his book. He might have been able to manage gainful employment.

But lacking a support system, for more than 30 years Richard periodically stopped taking his meds because he hated their side effects of grogginess, tremors, and diminished libido and thought he didn’t need them anyway. Like half of the people with schizophrenia, he didn’t believe he had the disease. What kept him on his meds and in treatment during the last years of his life was supportive housing that let him develop stable, trusting relationships with his doctors and spend peaceful time with members of his family who weren’t too exhausted or traumatized by his symptoms during the years when he had no care.

In short, although someone with schizophrenia doesn’t have a “split personality,” something does get split up by this disease. It’s the schizophrenic’s family. Delaney’s half-sister, Bonnie, remembers writing a story called “I Want My Daddy” when she was little, but as she grew up his psychotic episodes were so distressing she cropped his image out of her wedding photos. Not until Delaney herself was almost 40 could she begin to relax into being her dad’s daughter. Richard says he often imagined his two faraway girls as stars in the night sky and chanted to himself, “How I wonder how they are.”

Then the father went farther away than the daughters ever went. I won't reveal the ending, but shortly after both of Richard’s healthcare providers at his housing complex left to take jobs elsewhere, he went off his meds and disappeared. Perhaps the simultaneous breaking off of two longstanding personal attachments in a life that had so few of them made him angry or prompted despair. But charming as ever, he smiled at the last person who saw him.

Unlisted won a STIFFY for Most Compelling Documentary. An affecting film, delightful despite the darkness of its subject, it has an unforgettable character at its center. The production’s homemade, slightly tentative quality only strengthens its authenticity. The next screening is 7 pm this Wednesday (June 10) at Central Cinema, 1411 21st Ave. Tickets.

Judy Lightfoot, formerly a teacher and the Founding Head of Eastside Prep in Kirkland, is a Seattle writer. She is also a Freestyle Volunteer, meeting at cafes each week with individuals who share our public spaces but are socially isolated by homelessness or mental illness.

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Comments:

Posted Wed, Jun 10, 12:59 p.m. inappropriate

As someone who grew exhausted and was eventually physically endangered by a loved one with mental illness, I am compelled to say that the daughter did the right thing by avoiding contact with her unfortunate father. Living around someone so afflicted is a life of walking on eggshells, and in the end, the only way out of the chaos is to leave. This might sound cruel, dispassionate, or not dutiful to many, but a life with someone like this is exhausting and takes a huge toll on one's health and peace of mind. The decision to leave is very painful, but in the end, each of us is responsible for watching out for our own health and well-being first.

Posted Sun, Jun 14, 2:35 p.m. inappropriate

This is a moving story--I will try to see the film when it is shown on Wednesday. I recognize the mental illness symptoms of the father as much as I can also feel the emotional confict the daughter has in avoiding him. As the writer above said: being around someone like this is exhausting. Although treatment helps a bit, it doesn't do nearly enough to return the person to anything like normal functioning.

Posted Fri, Jul 3, 5:52 p.m. inappropriate

This is, indeed, a moving testimony to the tenacity of the illness and the struggles that occur for the individual and those around them. Children seldom have the internal or external resources to cope with the chaos that periods of decompensation produce and it is essential that there be adults around for their protection and mentoring. As we age and get a more experienced perspective, it is easier to manage our responses to familiy members with illness though there is always a part of us that remembers 'the way things were before' and grieves for it periodically. Interestingly enough, when the person with the illness is able to differentiate between their pre and post onset states they often intensely grieve the losses they have experienced. Unfortunately, suicide is not uncommon for people in this situation, and, though they may disagree with the choice, many can understand the reasoning behind the action. KG

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