Oh, to be 27 and caught in the recession

We who graduated right when the world stopped hiring suspect the trajectory of our lives won't be a dramatic arc.

Ryan Kelly, at a bookstore.

Ryan Kelly, at a bookstore.

I recently discovered that my grandfather, a Seattle native, learned to sew while he was a draft-dodging hobo, riding the rails in Eastern Washington. I never met him, but suffice it to say that I don’t feel the same weight of ancestral disappointment in my accomplishments that might sit heavily on the brows of many my own age. I live well in comparison to my storied forbear; I’ve never gone hungry, my hours are more leisure than labor, I am over-educated and warmly dressed.

When he was not much older than I am now, my hobo grandfather had two daughters and had become the first mayor of a newly formed Alaskan town. Whatever else might be said about him, the man knew how to make something of himself. When I have doubts about my own ability to succeed, I wonder if this is what afflicts the recession generation: the crippling suspicion that ours will not be a tale of triumphant progression, that due to implacable forces of global finance we will live out lives of unending gentle defeat.

I work in a store that sells used books. Bookselling is a noble profession, with a laudable history of promoting literacy and good-natured snobbery. It enables my compulsion to buy quantities of books in magnitudes greater than I will ever be able to consume. It is not a growth industry. Like record and video stores before them, bookstores are fighting a battle with technology, the result of which is a foregone conclusion. Kindles and iPads and their ilk will supplant the printing press and books will come to be as vinyl records are now: collectible to those few who still cherish the physical experience of an object.

Those few collectors will forever be in the minority compared to the multitudes of families selling their personal libraries, accumulated across decades. They quip in chipper voices about their libraries of electronic literature, woefully unaware of their audience. The books arrive in such obscene quantities that they begin to stack up, piles of them rising above eye level. In the back room employees move along ravines scored into mountain ranges made of paper, a landscape of increasing supply and dwindling demand.

As demand shrinks for printed books so too does demand shrink for those who sell them. Booksellers are, on average, vastly overqualified to perform their jobs. This is in part because of our current economic troubles, but perhaps also because it is an ideal job for a great mind at rest; the surroundings are lousy with stimulating ideas and nothing is ever truly at stake. There are ongoing debates about the arrangement of the biographies of the English noblesse, whether by name of biographer, of subject, or of royal house. There are heated discussions about Godel’s Incompleteness Theorem and the inability of various philosophical systems to justify themselves. I once provided an impassioned defense to my line of reasoning on why, in combat, Barack Obama would be able to defeat The Wolverine (who I assume is a Libertarian).

Perhaps none of this is the most profitable use of our energies, but for those of us who graduated from university right as the world stopped hiring, what else is there to do? If an entry-level position requires three years of experience and a work portfolio, what employer will be impressed by hyper-literacy and my insistence on organizing my overstuffed bookshelves by publisher?

To put myself through college I worked in the food service industry, and when I quit I swore I’d turn to a life of crime before waiting tables again. By comparison a bookstore gig is about as swell as you could hope. It’s not quite what I would call a living wage, but I can opt in to low-end health insurance, I get some vacation days, and cheap books to read. What frightens me is that this could be it. At the age of 27 I have professionally plateaued in a doomed retail sector. I respect my colleagues who have worked at the bookstore for more than 20 years, but I can’t stand the thought of working there that long, even if selling used books remains an economic viability two decades hence. But if I can’t stay here, where will I go? As enticing as that life of crime might sound, I have it on authority that it doesn’t pay.

In point of fact, I interact with the bottom rungs of the criminal element on a daily basis. Book thieves are a contemptible lot, and book thieving the supreme depth of petty offenses. No one steals a book they want to read (unless it’s pornographic, but there a different reasoning is at play). No one steals Joyce or Burroughs or Eldridge Cleaver, because those books are devoid of resale value. Thieves want books that can be converted easily into cash: graphic novels, roleplaying manuals, and current textbooks, and no one in the history of science has ever stolen a biology textbook because they were fascinated by but fiscally unable to explore the intricacies of zoological nomenclature.

If the store pays cash for used books, addicts will attempt to fence books for money. I try not to take the ineptitude of the thieves personally. I’ve been in the neighborhood for a long time, and if someone has offered to sell me drugs at a bus stop, then I will not believe him when he claims that the University Book Store will not refund the $200 he  paid for that still-shrink-wrapped textbook on medieval textile studies. Especially if I didn’t even think he was trying to sell me real drugs.

I cannot deny that there might be a part of me that enjoys dealing with these different sordid personalities; they provide color to otherwise mundane routines. But when I interact with one of my many local thieves, I know that no variety of economic disaster will ever debase me in the same way. No, for the most part these souls are the result of a failed drug war and much else that is beyond my current purview.

The economic recession didn’t drop the floor out from beneath a generation of college grads; we won’t plummet to the depths of poverty; freight trains will never be our preferred method of transportation. It’s more like the ceiling has begun to descend, pressing us down, bowing our heads lower and lower. Life’s peaks appear flattened in the distance, and all that remains is a long, level march.

I may not have started out as a hobo, but I’m not going to end up as the mayor. Maybe it’s unreasonable to expect one’s life to follow a proper dramatic arc. As long as I’m healthy and show up to work I will never starve, but it’s a real possibility that I will never retire.

I would like to think that my generation will be one that ably shoulders its inherited debt and leaves something sustainable in its place. But it’s hard to see what that might be from within a used bookstore, beneath the mountains of discarded books, hardcover monuments to progress.


About the Author

Ryan Kelly is a Seattle-area writer and bookseller. Until recently, he stored books instead of dishes in his kitchen cabinets.

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Comments:

Posted Thu, Oct 11, 10:29 a.m. Inappropriate

Well put.

Natattack

Posted Thu, Oct 11, 12:57 p.m. Inappropriate

It does seem that the proverbial "rat race" of the 1990s has become a rat maze, which may or may not have a piece of cheese in the center. I had my unplanned year off from the world of work after finishing grad school, never imagining that having a Ph. D. in mathematics would be a problem in the job market, though I blame my own indecision as much as the economic problems.

It increasingly seems to me that, though the high unemployment will eventually come to an end, that the pathways to success will be permanently redefined. Maybe even the definition of success itself. Those our age will probably be required to make more career changes than any preceding generation.

Posted Thu, Oct 11, 1:58 p.m. Inappropriate

Very nice essay. I hope you use more of the free time afforded to write more.

I graduated from college in the 1970s and really did not get my career stabilized until I was well into my 30s. My 20s were a series of fairly random and disparate jobs -- some paying more and some less, health care was an out of picket gamble, and I really did not know what I wanted to DO with my life. OK I finally found something I am good enough at that I can sell my time for a decent salary. But, it is certainly not what I really want to DO.

Treasure the freedom this time gives you. I will get to reassess when I finally retire :)

Posted Fri, Oct 12, 8:21 p.m. Inappropriate

I'm 57 and eager for my next career. We don't have to just pick one and stick with it, that would be horrid.

Posted Fri, Oct 12, 10:41 a.m. Inappropriate

I think the writer is feeling sorry for himself too much and could benefit from career counseling and more education. Worksource is a place where information on the job market can be obtained. While working as a bookseller by day, he could accumulate credits at night. Many occupations are open to a liberal arts graduate who wishes to obtain a second Bachelor's degree: public school English teacher, reading specialist, rehabilitation therapist, psychiatric nurse, autism therapist. It is a shame that when students graduate from high school they aren't apprised about the variety of careers that can be available.

Clarify

Posted Fri, Oct 12, 3:56 p.m. Inappropriate

I don't see any self pity in this excellent article. Mr. Ryan tells us what he sees. Not ugly, not beautiful.

kieth

Posted Fri, Oct 12, 8:20 p.m. Inappropriate

Ryan, I highly recommend a stint in Alaska. Your grandfather would be eager to see you see what he saw, I'm sure of it.

Posted Fri, Oct 12, 10:59 p.m. Inappropriate

Peak oil, peak credit/debt, even peak prosperity. Yes, it's been a party since 1945 for many, perhaps even a vacation from reality since 1980. But all parties come to end, too bad there are now nine billion of us thanks to cheap oil and the Haber process to make nitrogen from air. Oh well, that's just the way it is.

I do hope we see more from this writer.

Posted Sat, Oct 13, 6:31 a.m. Inappropriate

Consider learning a trade. The building trades have always been good. Plumbers do well, so do electricians. Carpenters so so. Butcher, Baker, Candlestick Maker. Find one choose one.

tonyg

Posted Sat, Oct 13, 12:47 p.m. Inappropriate

Thank you for all of your comments; I appreciate being read and debated, even if not everyone agrees with my sentiments.

In response to one comment, it was my worry that this essay would come off as self-pitying; I'm glad that feeling didn't come across to others, as it is not how I would characterize my emotions, nor less what I hoped to communicate to an audience. It would be easy to spout invectives against the aging generations that are voting in ways that will dismantle the social benefits (social security, etc.) that they themselves have enjoyed. But I would rather for me and mine that we would just accept that we were left holding the bag, and do our best not to pawn it off on those after us. I very much doubt that it will be glamorous to pick up the pieces of the economy, and it's unlikely that we'll have the sort of self-laudatory retrospective nostalgia of "the greatest generation," but hopefully we can reverse the mindset of those that came before us to "get mine and get out."

In response to some other comments recommending further education or trade schools: It's actually a conversation I've had with several of my coworkers, about how we used to look down on kids who went to trade schools instead of college. It seemed like something one did if one's primary academic accomplishments occurred in shop class. Now, of course, mechanics make much better money than the average liberal arts graduate, let alone how much better off are X-ray technicians, electricians, and anyone else with a skilled trade.
Further college education, without a very specific focus and goal, is a time and money sink that very few can afford. An undergraduate (and god forbid, a graduate) education is exponentially more expensive than it was for those who graduated in the 70's and 80's, from whence comes most well-meaning (and appreciated) advice. It's a poor gamble, one at which most strive to break even.

Again, thank you for reading and commenting.

-RK

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